Saturday, September 28, 2013

Heavy Hearted

Milinda passed away Thursday, September 19, 2013.  Her death came quickly after her diagnosis.  It is so hard to understand "Why"!  I have lost 2 close friends in a little over 2 years.  My heart aches when I think about not having them here to call or see again on this side of Heaven.  I am so grateful God allowed me the chance to say bye to Milinda.  I didn't get that with Evelyn.

Concerned about Toni.  I wish the doctors knew exactly what is wrong with her and how to treat it.

My etsy shop is not going very well.  I haven't sold anything since reopening it.  Feeling discouraged and defeated.  I look at her shops that are selling hundreds of items a month and I can't help but wonder "What am I doing wrong?".  Wish I could have a shop in Amy's store.  But, don't see that happening.  Happy for her, though.  She seems to be doing well with it.

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Where to Start?

So much has happened in the last couple of weeks.  My heart and head is sick.  Milinda has Stage 4 Cervical Cancer which is in the bones, too.  she will be taking chemo 5x a week for 5 weeks.  I am still trying to wrap my head around that.
Then I call Toni to let her know about Milinda and she tells me she is seriously ill and the doctors don't know what is wrong with her.  She had to give up her job as a surgical nurse because her hand tremors so badly.  It is affecting her speech and breathing.  She has to get Botox injections in her eyelids to keep them open and in her neck sometimes to be able to open her mouth or swallow.  The doctors are treating her as if she has Parkinson's or Lou Garrett, but really are just treating the symptoms.  She is trying to get on Social Security but keeps being denied.  It is so unfair!  She has worked hard ever since she was old enough and now, when she needs it they are denying her.
Sweet Brandon is in the hospital with dehydration.  Been in and out and back in.  His magnesium level is dropping and the doctors don't really know why.  Scares me to think of what it could mean.  Love that little man so much.  Love the whole family!